Tuesday, April 21, 2009

It Won't Be Like This For Long

Rachel has been fussier than usual this week and we haven't figured out exactly why. For starters, she doesn't want to lie down in her crib when I put her down for a nap. Sometimes I think it's separation anxiety because she's fine while I'm in her room putting things away but she starts crying as soon as I leave the room. She ends up not napping and of course that makes her really fussy by the end of the day. So at bedtime, she sometimes cries and squirms for a while, even while being held and rocked, but then she finally settles down and falls asleep.

Other times I think she is having teething pain. She chews on everything and Orajel sometimes seems to calm her down. But she really isn't drooling much which is a classic sign of teething.

Last week at the Easter Egg Hunt, it was a challenge to really be able to share the experience with Nicholas because Rachel was fussing a lot and wanted to be held the whole time. I love holding her but I also wanted to spend time with Nicholas and I wanted to eat my $2.25 hot dog in peace but neither of those things really happened like I had hoped. It wasn't much fun holding her and trying to push the empty stroller around on bumpy, hilly grass while also trying to take pictures of Nicholas and keep up with him. It was a fun egg hunt but I was wiped out by the time it was over and just wanted to go home.

I've been thinking about how much harder things are now that we have two children. Don't get me wrong. I love it. It's what I've dreamed of. And it's about as hard as I expected it would be. But I do miss being able to get through the day without guessing about why a child is crying and playing hit or miss to try to make her happy. It's just hard at times to juggle two little ones, especially when they both need me at the same time and in totally different ways. I ran across this song tonight and it was just what I needed to hear and just the right time.

Check out It Won't Be Like This For Long by Darius Rucker. I'm such a sap. It made me cry and I had to go watch my little Rachel sleeping and give her lots of kisses.

Here are the lyrics in case you have any trouble understanding him or if the link above doesn't work...

It Won't Be Like This For Long
by Darius Rucker

He didn't have to wake up
He'd been up all night
Layin’ there in bed listenin’
To his new born baby cry
He makes a pot of coffee
He splashes water on his face
His wife gives him a kiss and says
It gonna be OK

It won’t be like this for long
One day soon we'll look back laughin’
At the week we brought her home
This phase is gonna fly by
So baby just hold on
‘Cause it won't be like this for long

Four years later ‘bout 4:30
She's crawling in their bed
And when he drops her off at preschool
She's clinging to his leg
The teacher peels her off of him
He says what can I do
She says now don't you worry
This’ll only last a week or two

It won’t be like this for long
One day soon you'll drop her off
And she won’t even know you're gone
This phase is gonna fly by
If you can just hold on
It won’t be like this for long

Some day soon she'll be a teenager
And at times he'll think she hates him
Then he'll walk her down the aisle
And he'll raise her veil
But right now she's up and cryin’
And the truth is that he don't mind
As he kisses her good night
And she says her prayers

He lays down there beside her
‘Til her eyes are finally closed
And just watchin’ her it breaks his heart
Cause he already knows

It won’t be like this for long
One day soon that little girl is gonna be
All grown up and gone
Yeah, this phase is gonna fly by
So, he's tryin’ to hold on

‘Cause it won’t be like this for long

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